When I was a little girl, I dreamt a little dream. A little illusive dream of tinkerbells and fairies, of magic wands and princess in a little kingdom of eternal happiness. Then as I grew up and grew out of fairytale bliss, I began dreaming a little bigger dream. Then little bigger dream became bigger dreams. Then brother grew up and he shared his little dreams with me and together we dreamt a little bigger bigger dreams. Now, that my brother is no longer with me to chase these big little bigger dreams, I find myself wandering along an aimless dream road that ended the day he died. 

I recalled Tian Leng’s favourite song entitled “The Illusive Dream”.

Where might you be going this fine day my friend?

Off along an aimless road that soon must end

Chasing an illusive dream that shines so fair

But when found isn’t there

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If without the Grace of God your life should end

And before the face of God you’d stand, my friend

What would your illusive dream avail you then?

So, come along and walk with Him

If without the grace of God my life should end, what would my illusive dream avail me then? Am I walking an aimless road chasing an illusive dream? If without the grace of God ….. *sigh*

Illusive is such an illusive word. Been thinking about this word for a while.

I was up all night. So forgive me if my post is somewhat messy and unstructured.

I realised that the biggest dream I’ve ever dreamt was of those when I was that little girl. Dreams that took wild imagination and non-existence fear of failure. Dreams of wildest imaginative creativity. Dreams of impossible reach yet filled with the naive hope of believing that they would come true.

Had a little chat with another dragon-named guy and little chat of little dreams became late night chats of bigger dreams. Sleep deprived and high on caffeine, yet I am so excited with the plans I have planned ahead. I feel so liberated because I have found the courage to dream again. Norman Cousins is right. “The capacity for hope is the most significant fact of life. It provides human beings with a sense of destination and the energy to get started.”  

Every success in life starts with a dream. The only difference between a dream and success is not the courage to dream but the courage to make that dream come true. But most of us stare at our dream for so long that that dream remains an illusive dream because we are so afraid to take that first step into making it happen…because we are so afraid of failure. Because having hope is better than the realisation of no hope should we fail to succeed. 

“To conquer fear is the beginning of wisdom” they say. 

So I  summed up the courage to be that little girl again. Because I have found the courage to dream bigger dreams again. I know I’m not chasing an illusive dream. Because unlike that little girl who dreamt of tinkerbell and fairies, this girl knows better.  She just needs the courage to believe again and the strength to achieve them.

So, here’s sneak peak into our dreams, which I believe no one would be able to comprehend from the picture above except Tian Leng and June. Because that is our dream to dream and our vision to build.

“If a little dreaming is dangerous, the cure for it is not to dream less but to dream more, to dream all the time.” – Marcel Proust -